Once again, its been quite a while since my last blog. Things have been very hectic but I promise I will start commenting on everyone's blogs again soon and will try to make more regular blogs.
Since the last time I blogged, much has happened. I have been spending more time with Christopher. He is so sweet - having flowers delivered to my apartment and taking me on really cute dates - like ice skating and an indoor picnic. Yet, I don't know quite how I feel about him yet.
Things have been up and down with Derek. I went on vacation to visit my family for a couple weeks around Christmas. Right before then, things were going pretty well. Then, he was super sweet while I was gone. He called often and we had long conversations. He invited me to spend Christmas with him and his family but I didn't go. He brought souvenirs back for me and kept checking in, saying he missed me and was anxious for when I came back.
Then, I returned in time for New Years and we spent the night together with some of his circle of friends. It was fun and we had a great time. Then I didn't see him for the whole weekend after.
He wanted to see me that Sunday but I was going out of town for work. I stopped by his apartment briefly before leaving and we hung out for just a few minutes - it was relaxed and nice and made me miss all the days we spent just doing nothing. I miss lounging on the couch watching TV and sports and movies.
We haven't seen each other all week and he has made basically no effort. Tonight he asked if I'd come out with him and some friends to watch the college championship football game and I said sure, I'd love to come. He said he'd call on his way home from work and we'd make definitive plans and I haven't heard from him yet.
I have a lot of other things going on in my life right now and some of them aren't good but I'll write about those later. He should be around for this. He should be here but he doesn't even know what's going on because he hasn't taken the time to ask. This really bothers me and I keep thinking that if he doesn't follow through on these plans tonight that it really is the last straw. He never stands me up when we make plans. On occassion he's postponed them for no good reason at all but he has never stood me up. At thirty minutes to gametime, he should have called by now. And if he doesn't, I think it might be too much. But taking a stand is so much easier said than done. Walking away is easier said than done. But I don't know how much more of this I can take.